Monday, May 11, 2009


Well, J is not sleeping any better. It may be due to a cold he got right after the surgery or it may be that I'm a terrible parent who has trained him to only sleep when I hold him. It's hard to tell because he's had physical reasons for his night wakings for so long and he genuinely needed help.

Anyway, he's screaming his guts out right now and has been for an hour. I'm so frustrated.

It's got me asking over and over and over again, "What's the point?"

Apparently there is none. It seems that no matter how hard I try things don't change and don't improve.



Lacey said...

I'm praying for you! I hope that he'll get the sleep that he needs, and that you'll get the sleep you need, tonight and in the future.

Sarah said...

Hang in there Laura!

m said...

Oh man, not good. Hang in there my excellent amazing friend. On to the next book, theory, or opinion...we'll find something that works. Remember what you wrote the other day though...follow your mommy instincts to love and nurture. I liked that advice you gave. love m

Jer said...

I'm sending prayers your way today.

Lura said...

Well, it's definatley NOT because you are a terrible parent. You are an AWESOME mom, and your kids are lucky to have you!
Hope things start looking up soon!